Room Ruddy-Aggravating 2.0

[Wisp]

I'm getting very sick of trying to socialise at Uni. There seems to be two distinct groups of people. Mousy anime/manga/comic book people who are already friends and WILL NOT talk to anyone else (Not that I see any friendship potential. Not a fan of japanese animation OR superhero blockbuster marathons, and when I talk to them I can tell they wish they were talking to someone who likes manga.) and then the party people who all live in housing together and get smashed every night. I'm a funny grey-blue area person, because I like a good film/box set marathon, but I'd also like to have a few drinks and banter with people, but the only sort of get-togethers that seem to be going on are purely designed to get everyone paraletic. I was so uncomfortable that I sat on the couch downing WKD until I was drunk enough to not care how awkward I felt trying to shout my name and the course I'm doing to very drunk people over the loud music, then some random fella snogged me and I went home. Rant, rant, rant. I'M TRYING. I'M REALLY TRYING. I've joined a film club, but all that seems to happen is

1. Enter club
2. Watch film in silence (all 7 of us)
3. Leave

I COULD DO THIS AT HOME. THEY SAID THERE WAS FREE FOOD. THERE WAS NOT. They even had a Wii out! Did anyone use it? NO! But Wiis are crap so that isn't suprising.

I'm also party annoyed by myself, because the last bunch of people I was vaguely mates with only became "mates" after I'd been around them for like 3 or 4 years. And now they are at different Unis far away, so I can only really talk to them the odd few times on Facebook. But I was never exactly best friends with them either... I'm strangely incapable of talking and behaving like myself until I've had regular interaction with a person or a party of persons for about a month. So it's not like people look at me and think "she looks like a laugh." I think my appearance might have something to do with it because although I have full hair and makeup done and usually make an effort, I'm horribly shy in person so the quieter people who ACTUALLY ARE like me might be put off because I don't look like them, but the party people will be put off by the fact that I'm much shyer than my appearance suggests. But I refuse to change how I look and how I am in person, because the only way you know who is real friend material is if they embrace or at least deal with what you've got going on, as it is and not as you're trying to make it seem. It's all horrible. I don't know what to do. I'm feeling very isolated and I think I've taken this rant too far, but there you go.